This week my everyday watch has stopped working. The battery is flat and ridiculously expensive to replace. So, for now, I will be without one.
Which got me to remembering a period when I chose to be without a watch...for two years. Mobile phones were just becoming widely available. Nothing smart about phones in those days but I was able to check the time as and when needed.
However, what I did notice in that time was that I became sensitive to the day, to the place of the sun in the sky, how the seasons were very distinctive. Above all, I became aware of my own clock. I knew when to eat, sleep and rise. I was hardly ever late for things (which I find intolerable anyway) and I got everything done. My pace found a naturalness in everything that I did, be it daily routines, physical activities or leisure and rest.
It would be lovely to think that I had total freedom, was giddily unconstrained and spontaneity was my driving force but alas, nothing as fanciful as that. However, I did feel a certain liberation by not having a timepiece attached to my wrist, as if I was freed from ageing, unhooked from measurement and all of the burden of adulthood.
I am not expecting the same “adventure” as before. Ashamedly, I rely too heavily upon my phone to ever be far away from a visual reminder of each passing hour. But what I am anticipating is a reacquaintance with “moments” as in the true and amazing realisation that only the time in which I am functioning exists. Already I am smiling. These are like little gifts, each unique, all unrepeatable, totally mine.
Some may think this to be indulgent, others might say irresponsible. But for those who have experienced a connection with themselves (e.g. breath in yoga, reminded by smell) you will understand the happy anticipation I am experiencing today.
I have just shared an “inner’ truth.
And whilst it is rare for readers to commit to making a comment on a blog it is perfectly acceptable to make a comment to yourself…especially in the area of what you see as a gift in your life.
Further reading: A Brief History of the Wristwatch (The Atlantic 27/5/15)